Friday, April 17, 2009

~ It's Time ~

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Yeap, it's time for the pretty flowers to peek out of the thawing gardens and show their beautiful colors to welcome spring, but that isn't what I'm talking about.  It's time for me to pull on my 'big girl' panties and move on.  I've been told over and over how strong and positive I've been through all this and I guess to a point I have been.  What everyone doesn't always see is the tears rolling down my cheeks.  The 'feel sorry' for myself as I lay on the couch being uncomfortable.  How I want my life back.  I want my hobbies to be interesting to me again.  I want to enjoy the next six months and not miss it like I have the last six.  I barely log on anymore.  Well, to clean out my mailbox but even then so much just gets deleted.  That is not me.  I miss everyone but have had no get up and go when I'm here.  It's not like I'm busy doing anything.  Hell, I've watched repeats of daytime TV.  How sad is that?  I use to be 'don't leave home without it', my camera that is.  Now?  I barely pick it up.. well until recently.   I've decided to move forward or change my interests but  sitting on my ass doing nothing is not for me.  I've been given a second chance and I need to embrace it!
It's also time for an update.  I know many of you have visited my sister for updates as well as welcome her to blogville.  She is so enjoying herself and I couldn't be happier that she is getting into this and I so appreciate you following her and taking her under your wing.
So me?  I'm really doing ok.  Much better.  I have another incision that starts from the bottom of the last one and goes right to my pubic bone.  I have two small ones on either leg, maybe 3-4 inches from the top of my thigh and into my groin area (or there abouts.)  Those are the ones that hurt the most, but are doing much better now.  I am now able to get into my jeans and the rubbing at my belly button and when I sit is minimal.  I've recently been cleared for more activity and I've been riding my stationary bike for about 20-30 minutes every day.  I'm not a speed demon by any stretch but I can do it with only leg power and I don't have to stop.  Walking is something I can do too.  My left foot is still numb and swells at times but the pain is mostly gone and I can walk for more then 1-2 minutes now.  That is a good thing!  We are not sure about the foot.  It could take 6 months to a year before we know if it will come back, or if it won't.  I have to learn to be happy with what I do have, but damn walking with a drop foot is not fun nor pretty.  Work?  I can go back May 5.  I'm excited, but then on the other hand wonder why.  LOL  I love my job and the people I work with but I'd love to be rich and not have to worry about it.  Ok, so we all think that way... it's just not the case with me right now :)
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So these are new pictures.  They were taken Easter Sunday.  Ohhhhhhhhhhhh and I hope everyone had a good holiday.. whatever you celebrate.  Mine was good.  My sister cooked dinner this year.  Breakfast was put on hold because my Dad had knee surgery and was being moved from the hospital to the rehab center in the am and it was just easier for my Mom to do dinner with us.  He, by the way is doing good.  Great actually.  He is hoping to be home next week.  Time will tell.  I keep telling him and my Mom not to rush it. 
Easter was good.  Bug and Gage were there and enjoying themselves.  Bug offered me some of her candy and I told her no.  I had to explain why I couldn't eat sugar.  It was a good 15 minutes of back and forth conversations and when it was all said and done her response, 'sounds to me like you have a candy problem.'  Out of the mouths of babes!! 
So there you have it.  A little update.  I am going to try to be here and on facebook a little more.  I've been dabbling with tags and hope I'll have an offer and soon.  I do hope everyone is well.  I will be doing my best to get by soon.  I promise!  Love you all.
hugs
~d

39 comments:

Beth said...

Great to hear from you, Donna, and I sense a little spunk and feistiness going on here! That's a very good thing! B.

nancy said...

See? you got back on line in no time. Glad you're posting big seeeester... Love ya.. lOve the photos.. I gotta do Mom's flowers.. Have a great night.. LOve from you know who..:) Nancy

MariesImages said...

What a great sight....seeing you post again! WELCOME BACK, Donna, we missed you...;)
Lovely flowers, glad to see you still shooting. Your sister was great, she kept us all updated, THANK YOU NANCY!
Maybe you'll even join in our challenge next..;)
One step at a time~
Hugs~
Marie

FLORIDALADY4U said...

So good to see an email from you Donna ..you have been in my thoughts and prayers.

I am right behind you ....fell a few weeks ago ..tripped over one of my dogs and broke my arm and dislocated my shoulder ...physical therapy is brutal.

Take things easy ....big hugs sent to you

Lisa said...

Welcome back Donna, you've been missed !!!!!!! Love Lisa

Linda Brown said...

Donna it was really good to hear from you. Remember there can't be Victories without struggles. They are tough too and pray that soon that they will all be Victories and the struggles will be over. We miss you but so glad to hear that you are progressing. Love the pictures. Beautiful!
Keep your chin up. You are a winner!
Linda
llbrown247@aol.com

Lori said...

It's so good to see a post from you! Don't be too hard on yourself for doing a little bit of wallowing. But you're the one who knows when it's time for the wallowing to stop. So I hope you find new interests or get back to your old ones (we LOVE your pics!). I'm very glad your family is doing well. I'd love to have the link to your sister's blog. I don't think I do -- not sure why. Take care, and I hope you have a great weekend!

Big Mark 243 said...

It is good to hear from you, as always. Glad you are back, and you know for a fact you are in my thoughts.

Penny said...

Welcome home, D. We have been praying for you and here you are! I'm really glad to know you are feeling better and have decided to move on. Go ahead and cry if you want. I think our tears wash and refresh our souls. I am grateful to hear from you again. Many blessings and much love, Penny

Carolina said...

Have missed ya lots and think about you often wondering how you are doing-u are in my prayers Donna. Just take it easy and know you are loved.

Carolina said...

ohh I need your sisters site too-hugs!

Gayla said...

(((Donna)))
It's really awesome to see you posting!! I know these last weeks, months even, have been extremely tough and challenging for you. Don't beat yourself up on wallowing: it's OK :)Actually, you're handling this all VERY well!I've done my share of wallowing too.
I'm thankful that your doing better and I think of you often. Drop foot is very serious and I pray that it does get better :)
And I love Nancy so much!! She is quite the gal :)
So when you feel like it, get that camera out and ENJOY, ENJOY and ENJOY some more :)
Biggest Hugs....Gayla

Linda's World said...

It's soooooooo good to hear from you. Sometimes, recovery times have to be just baby steps. The bad thing is, it seems none of us have the patience for baby steps. Take it easy and stay in touch. Enjoy your last couple weeks at home. Linda in Washington

Teresa said...

Welcome Back Donna :) I've been waiting for you to get back...beautiful flower pic's btw. ((((((((((Donna))))))))))

Gaboatman said...

Donna
Sounds like you are starting to see some light at the end of the tunnel. Good for you! I'm glad you are going to start posting again, you've been missed. I wish you all the luck with the rest of your recovery peroid and want you to know my thoughts and prayers are still with you. All the best!
Sam

Jan said...

Lovely ,goodie goodie Donna has posted ,it has been a long journey but so pleased you are on the way back again Donna ,I am pleased to hear your Dad is doing well again ,Nancy has kept us up to date ,love you Donna ..Janxx

Joan said...

So nice to hear from you and sounding more positive too. Hope the improvement in your health continues and now the weather should be getting better that should help too. Hubby gets the results of his leg scan this week to see what is to be done to him. Love Joan

madcobug said...

Good to see you back online. Glad that you will be able to go back to work in May. I love those flowers especially the frame you put around the first one. The last one is pretty also. It looks translucent. Glad that you Dad is doing good and will be home soon. Hugs, Helen

beachmom15 said...

D!!!! It's good to see a post from ya! Love the pic of the 2nd flower. I actually want a tattoo of something like that!!! Well, I'm not on facebook, even though alot of people are and want me to join...it's hard enough to stay current here and on twitter!! anyway.. have a great day and hope to talk to you soon! xoxo
Lisa (lisita15)
http://beachmom15.blogspot.com/

Hollie said...

Donna,
It's so good to hear from you. I've been praying or you all. LOL about Bug's comment about the candy. Kids are a sight. I'm glad you had a good Easter! Looking forward to other posts....

Love ya!

Bridgett said...

Thrilled to see an entry from you, D!

Especially one so positive and life-affirming.

And girl, I have a 'candy problem' too. LOL

XOXO

Jeannette said...

It's so good to hear from you again Donna! I'm glad you're doing well, it's too easy to sit and feel sorry for yourself, I did the same when I had my slipped discs and the ulcers. So, I hope you can get to grips with the 'candy problem'! Lol! Kids always manage to make you laugh don't they?! I'm glad your dad is doing well, I hope the knee heals and he's up and about soon. I know what you mean about being rich enough to not have to work, wouldn't it be nice if we had the choice? I'm sure you'll get a great big welcome when you get back! Love Jeannette xxxx

Gerry said...

Hello Donna! Have been visiting Captn' Nancy's blog which by the way I think is very charming to get updates, and she has done a good job telling us about you, but now it is wonderful to see that you feel good enough to post. And I hope that your foot will show improvement as that sounds like the biggest concern. The miracles of modern surgery and the risks! Pain and discomfort and wondering if everything will work again as it is supposed to. Well, take it easy. Going back to work will be a big hurdle, so we would expect you to come back slowly to all the rest. Gerry

Joyce said...

I was so excited to see a post on here Donna. I sure have missed ya and worried about ya and prayed for ya. I'm soooo sorry you have had to go through all of this, but very happy that you made it through. And, BTW, I love Nancy. She is a dear and has been wonderful about keeping us informed.
Hugs, Joyce

Astaryth said...

So Nice to see a post from you! I've been a little worried with the silence, but figured you were healing :) {{{Hugs}} Hang in there, you will get your life back to normal, or at least find a new normal.

Leslie said...

Donna, *HUGS* This was great to see an entry from you. I have missed you tons. I always prayed for you daily & wondered how you
have been doing. Hanging in there i am sure, best you know how. Hun it just breaks my heart to know you have been crying and have been thru so much in the past few months. But you are strong you are. You made thru it all you truly did and will continue too. I admire you for that. I pray for you to heal more and more each day. I look fwd to seeing more posts from you :) Im just so happy your back hun. I loved the pics too as always. That was a funny Bug story too, lol. Glad you had a nice Easter as well hun. Take care hun. Agian praying for you and sending hugs your way. Looking fwd to another entry. Hope to hear from you soon. xoxo, Leslie

Linda :) said...

One day at a time...
and you are doing great... :)
Glad you and yours had a nice Easter...
So glad you picked up the camera, the photos are as beautiful as ever!
Have a blessed Sunday!

Darlene said...

Finally a blog from you D, long time coming! Not to say that I don't blame you hon, It's just that I know how much blogging and taking pics and making tags means to you. This means that you are progressing, getting healthy and even though you have setbacks and misery (it's no wonder)it means that the old D is coming through!!! I pray that the coming months will bring you peace, give you a reason to prosper and live and enjoy life again hon! It seems sooooooooo good to come back here and listen to your music as I write this. We have the same taste in music, a spark of nostalgia comes to me when I hear them! Thank you for that!!
We love and adore you chicky!!!
PLZ stay active on here, I miss your blogs!!!
xoxox Dar :)

Jeannette said...

Just so glad to see a posting from you Donna and know that you are doing much better. Now it is only forward, improving all the time. God bless and hugs xxxx

Just Bill said...

Donna, now you are sounding like the Donna,I know. Keep it up,
Ahug {{{Doanna}}}}}}}}} and love to you, Bill

Bucko (a.k.a., Ken) said...

Glad you are getting back into your interests. Six months is not really that long, so welcome back :o)

Rose~* said...

Big (((HUG))) to you, Donna. So nice to see you back. TV reruns, huh? It's HOCKEY playoff season now. I'm enjoying flipping back and forth on different stations to see a glimpse of all the games. Go Canucks!! (had to throw that in, lol)

Julie said...

A candy problem, how cute.

FrankandMary said...

Any get up and go you do have, use it for healing. We'll wait. I am glad to see you though and hope it becomes semi-regular. Just when you feel like it. We miss you.
~Mary

Yasmin said...

So good to see you post Donna I'm also glad your getting your fighting spirit back, it's going to be a long road but one day at a time is all you can do.

Take care

Yasmin
xx

Indigo said...

It's not the same online without you dear friend. However I do understand in more ways than most, as I pretty much did the same poor me routine after I lost my hearing. You pretty much hit it on the nail when you said you reach a point you have to just go forward.

As Mary said you're missed but please don't push yourself. Use your enjoy to heal. You have another chance with life and I have no doubt you will take advantage of all it offers. Great to see a post from you dear friend! (Hugs)Indigo

Missie said...

I'm so glad to see you online again! Must be a sign you're feeling better.

I know what you mean about feeling sorry for yourself. I've been doing a lot of that myself lately!

Have a good week!

Terri said...

We've missed you girlie!!!

I can't say nothing I have barely been logging on lately myself..no excuse here either been being a couch potato in the afternoons or getting out and enjoying the warmer weather...lol

So glad to hear from you though...sounds as if things are improving...so glad to hear! Also glad to hear how well your Dad is doing... keeping you both in my prayers!

Your flower pics are beautiful!

Love ya!
Terri

Debbie said...

Welcome back Donna! It's great to hear from you and sounding more perky. You've been through so much in the past several months. We've missed you dearly. Nancy's a sweetheart and did wonderfully keeping us informed on how you were doing. I couldn't leave a comment when your Dad had his surgery but all of you were in my prayers.

Love ya
Debbie