~ What day is it? ~

... better yet what time is it?   Seems everything just runs together...  ::sigh::  I'm doing ok.. but having a bit of a time adjusting.  I'm not sure exactly how I am supposed to feel.  I ache here and there.  Shoulders, ribs, sternum.  All the places you'd expect I guess.  It's not a constant, some days are better then others.  I have to wonder as one lays out cold and they cut your chest open, then break your sternum in half to do the surgery where they put everything.  Where are your arms?  Where are the doctors resting their hands as they do the fine surgery?  How is my head/neck positioned?  Maybe I'll ask him when I go for my check up on Wed.

I've probably got about 10 scripts.  All pretty much are telling that I've had heart surgery.  One of the things you are told not to do is apply pressure of more then 5-10 pounds with my arms.  No major lifting, pushing or pulling.  So explain to me why the pharmacist puts all my meds in a container with a child proof cap?  I cannot open one of them!   I'm pretty independent, hate being a burden, and damn having to have someone open my meds drives me nuts.

Yesterday the temps were in the mid 60's.. in Buffalo?  In November?  Almost unheard of.  My son came by with a different pair of shoes for me and he took me for a walk.  We didn't go far, but the fresh air was great.  I am amazed at how tired I get from such little activity.  A shower is hard work.  I guess it is getting better day to day but still..........

I've tried to stop by here and there.  Know I'm thinking of you all... I appreciate you all understanding and hanging with me during this time.  Not sure exactly when I will get home, maybe the end of next week..  so in the meantime no pictures... or not yet anyway.

Hugs
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