~ Tired ~

First, let me say my nose surgery on Wed. went well.  I have a follow up on Tuesday and I hope at that time he will remove the tubes in my nostrils and the sinus pressure will be releaved.  My ribs feel good.  My arm... :::sigh::: not so great.  I can finally see my knuckles as the swelling there has gone down.  My forearm is still a bit puffy and black and blue.  I will be in the air cast for a few more weeks, and I know it's better then having surgery and a plate put in, but this sucks.  My arm has no mobility and I have a few sores from the pressure points and the little rubbing which cannot be helped.  I called the Dr. with my concerns but so far status qou.  The cast stays on.  Working one handed sucks big time!  My new employer has been great.  Virtually no questions asked, and I go back tomorrow.

BUT.... I'm tired!

Tired of putting on the happy face........

of having folks tell me how strong I am when I'm a whimp and tired of it all.

Tired of having to have constant help

washing my hair.... taking a shower...

Thank God I can wipe my own ass!!!

I'm tired of being sick

of being tired

For the past 10 months my life has drastically changed and been in turmoil.  I finally had things going my way... and poof.  WTF!?!?   Can I get back to my old life now????

I know folks have it worse... I feel bad for whining... for feeling sorry for myself....

BUT DAMN IT....I'M TIRED!!!

~ OOppps ~

Short and sweet, typing one handed....since the cat is out of the bag... sort if... Nancy touched on it briefly on her blog. I'll fill you in. Most know I have diabetic neuropathy in my left foot and minimal movement in the left ankle. I've been a bit confident and/...or cocky when walking. The other night I lost my balance. I tried to catch myself and failed miserably. I have a humerus fracture (bone between shoulder and elbow), a broken rib, and my face is busted up. Will need surgery on my nose when the swelling goes down (7-10 days). The arm is the most painful... and it is not humorous.. ok bad joke! I'll be fine in a few days. Really embarrassed tho.


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~ Terrible Blogger... Horrible Friend ~

OMG!  That title is so true.  I have a million excuses.  I hate the way blogger uses graphics, or how the animation is always distorted.  The way it freezes up while I'm in google reader regardless of what browser I'm using.  How comments never go through unless I try a gazillion times.  How I just haven't been able to get into it since I went through all my shit.  I've been playing way too much in Facebook because it's faster, easier, and most of the time more user friendly.  EXCUSES!   I suck!  I am so sorry....  really I am.  I do care about you...  believe or don't......

I've actually been doing good.  Great really.  Yeah I got laid off from my job of 17 years.  I never cried, never got mad.  Felt nothing really.  I've had a blast.  Summer arrived for a few weeks and I enjoyed the time like you would not believe.  I decided after a couple weeks I should buckle down and job hunt.  I started the job hunt by shopping.  LMAO!   Well....  I needed clothes to wear on the interviews, ya know?   That in itself was so much fun.  Shopping off the racks and rarely needing to try things on.  Good Gaawd I love it!!

I sent out a few resumes.  Then it happened.  I was contacted by a few companies. 

I won't go into too much information, but I had an interview and it felt good.  I thought I'd be nervous, but I wasn't.  It was very natural.  I must have done something right because they called me back the next day to come back.  I did and wow!  An offer was made.  I counter and it all worked out.  I am making more then I did before.  I'm still in sales and the bonus/commission structure is wonderful.  I am confident it won't be long and I will be on the right path.  The $$$ path.  LOL   So, yeap, I accepted and start on Wed.  I'm so excited.

So there you have it.  I am hoping to get into a routine and get back on the blogger path.  I hope you'll all forgive me and work with me to get things back on track.  I've missed you all!

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~d

~ 17 years + ~

 

::waving::  Hi folks!  It's been waaaaaaaaaaay too long.   I've been running a little bit here and there and just didn't have the pazazz to write.  

My vacation was great.  My friend came in from Tampa and we had an absolute ball.   Site seeing, catching up with family.. both hers and mine.  It has been over 10 years since we saw each other!  Too freaking long! 

 

It was nice having the time off, but unfortunately it was cut short.  Way to short!!  On Friday I was called at home and asked to come back a day early from my vacation.  I sure as hell knew that wasn't good but all I could do was wait it out.  Can you say long weekend?

My friend was still here and we had plans to attend a few functions and I didn't let my nerves spoil the fun.  Or at least I tried not to.

 

So Monday morning came.  I dressed for work knowing this wasn't going to be good.  Within an hour of my arrival I was called to human resources.  Yeap, you got it.  After 17 years at the company, giving blood, sweat, and tears, literally I was laid off.  I sat there in shock.  I wasn't alone but I was surprised that I was one of the chosen few.  How could that be?   Numbers don't lie and at the risk of sounding a bit cocky I was the producer and had the most seniority. 

No use crying about it, nothing will change.  The decision was made and I will never be told the criteria.  I got a severance package and they hooked me up with a transition company that will help get me up to date on resumes and interview skills.  I will most definitely take advantage and already have!

I've got a couple irons in the fire and believe it or not a former co-worker called me today to try and hook me up.  I will be calling his new company tomorrow. 

I don't want to get ahead of myself so I will ask that you send good vibes my way.  I could use 'em!

So all in all I am doing ok.  Not great, but ok.  I will no doubt become nervous as time goes on but right now................. I'm ok.

I had the day free today and decided to follow through on some suggestions from many to sell my photographs.  I will never make a living at it... but it can't hurt.   I'd love for you to stop by and check it out.   If interested in any that I've posted already feel free.  If not, no hard feelings, but could you share the link?  Pimp the site if you would? You never know :)  Photo's by D's Designs

Thanks folks as always I appreciate your support, good wishes, and friendship!!!  

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~d

~ Strawberry Fields......... Forever?~

....not if this guy has anything to say.   Some of you may remember that a while back I posted on how my landlord had planted a patch of strawberries in the backyard.   This morning before I left for work this was the sight I saw.   This guy jumped the chain link fence to get to the plants.  There are no berries as it was too late when they went in, but damn he pulled root and all out.   Lucky for him you can't shoot a firearm or he'd be dinner one night. 

Thanks for all the nice comments on my last entry.  I haven't been spammed again.. not yet anyway.  GRRR I wish folks would just grow up....  auto poster or not someone set it up and it's so immature.  What purpose does it serve?  Really.  If any of my readers were or are into porn I'm sure they already have their favorite free sites.  LMAO!!  Terri your tantum had me in stitches.  You are such a good friend :)  Thank you!

Today I had a bunch of emails that were unsubscribing from my blog.  Everyone was an AOL email address.  It says ISP requested and it appears some were folks that I haven't seen on line in ages so maybe their mailboxes are full.  Not sure.  If you're still interested in getting alerts and haven't you may want to subscribe again.  AOL at it's finest.  GRRRRR

Picked my girlfriend up at the airport last night.  She is in town for 2 weeks from Tampa.  She'll be staying at my house next week.  Should be fun.  For now I need to get sleep.  It was after 2:30am when I got home from dropping her off and my old bod is tired.  

Be good all........... and thank you!

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~d